It's too "hard", to apologize...

hellooooo

my boogie aka D.D blog

im dont know how to tell you

the main thing is 

" ALL MY FAULT"

 today i had argued with my mum

i know that time is all my fault

because of my laziness and my hot-tempered

i don't why today i'm so angry

just now my tempered was 

really really no good

my mum slowly asked me 

whether tomorrow got class or not

i already said i don't know

and then she asked me when she will get the answer

that time i was playing computer

and im dont know y im like

lazy to answer her

then i say her loudly and rudely

@.@''

then she scolded me

she very angry

i quarreled with her back

aduii~~

her sound of scolding really make me 

uncomfortable, 

and very sharp

i can't restrain it

@.@''

so i can't control myself

at last, i quarreled with her back

SHE FELT EVEN MORE ANGRY THAN JUST NOW

the more i quarreled back her, the more she angry

super angry

she scolded really make my ear pain!!!

that time im also vry angry

and stop argue with her

then i don't want to bother her

let her scold~~

@.@''

I KNOW ITS ALL MY FAULT

BUT JUST NOW I REALLY CAN'T CONTROL MY ANGER

AND FELT LIKE ARGUING 

WORST OF ALL

THAT TIME I KNOW IM WRG

BUT STILL I KEEP ON DOING IT

@.@''

OMG!

Y AM I SO CRUEL??

Y AM I SO BAD???

Y AM I BEHAVE BADLY?

Y AM I SO UNFILIAL?

@.@''

REALLY HATE MYSELF!

say the truth,

its really hard to control our anger

not only anger,

others kind of emotion also hard to control

such as

cry, laugh, envy 

and so on

this not all we want

we just hard to control it

haih..

and 

ITS HARD FOR ME TO APOLOGIZE TO HER

this will make me more hard to face her

the other reason make me felt like

lazy to talk with someone

is maybe because im lack of sleep

everytime,

i had not enough sleep

im very easy to get angry

sometime i can restrain it but sometime really can't

aduiii

this is all my business

i really deserve it!

now we very less to talk with each other

don't how about tomorrow..

will it like normal(talk back) or still the same(still din talk back)??

its too hard for me to apologize to my parent

i don't know y

i felt like unusual

its hard to say out my feeling to my parent

really can't pass my heart stage

but 

im just express my feeling here

this is where i can express my feeling place

Dear mum,

Im really sorry today i did that to you

i know you're vry vry angry and heart pain

that seeing me behave badly like this to you

but im really cant control myself

i know you had did many things for me

i can see that

but still i behave like this to you

mum, im really sorry

i cant tell you all this to you face to face

because i don't know how to tell you

really hard to face you

now im really regret to did all that

i hope you can forgive me

sometime im really really very hard to control my anger

really really hard( i told you that before)

T____T

hope you'll understand

anyway,

im really really really sorry

and i'll try to change it

*its really hard to change*

>.<''

haih..

i hope i wont 'san fen zhong re du'

last but not least,

sorry again and again

='(

im deserve to get punishment

hope everything will be okay!

aduii...

now felt okay abit

@.@''

I need an angel to save me and guide me,

I want to get rid from the evil.

EVIL PLS GO AWAY FROM ME!!

I HATE YOU, EVIL!!

I DON'T NEED YOU, EVIL!!

PLS GO AWAY AS FAR AS POSSIBLE

FROM ME!!

MY LIVE DON'T NEED YOU!!!!

EVIL!!

DON'T RUIN MY LIVE!!

EVIL!!

ANGEL= HAPPY

EVIL= SAD

ANGEL+ HAPPY= HAPPINESS

EVIL+SAD= SADNESS

"so y not we choose an angel to live happily

instead of choosing an evil to live sadly"

okay.

thats all for now

"LIKE" the angel.

"UNLIKE" the evil.

always remember it.

ja neh!

my boogie aka my D.D blog

❤ its a cute and good picture.❤

*rarely to see this situation*

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